and the thought in the front of my mind is that I need to put in a lot more time doing just that. . . with my blog.
for a while I felt like I was doing well with the frequency of posts but then something happened and I don’t know that I can just call it a slump but I was finding that I just didn’t have as much that I wanted to share with the world.
sure, I’d love to post a cool tutorial on how I did something; but to be honest I haven’t finished too much lately that seems all that interesting. well. I did make a decision to try some new things, I do this from time to time, I try new things where there is already an existing thing that I like but feel that a little change might keep things fresh. getting stuck in a rut or pattern of doing things doesn’t bring me the comfort that it does many. well sometimes it does but even within those patterns I prefer a good deal of spontaneity. it’s just the way that I am and while there have been a few that I’ve offended by this way of being for the most part the people around me get it.
I’m going
to
practice being
in the momentand I guess that’s where some of the problems have been. I really don’t want to blog about whether I do or don’t make it to the gym. I don’t want to write product endorsements unless I’m really really blown away by something and truth be told do you even care what my favorite toothpaste is or what body lotion I use. and if you do, doesn’t that put you in a category of weird that I just really don’t want to know about?!?
so since I’m not wanting to share all my neurotic tendencies then what am I doing? I don’t know. I used to write a lot of poems but them I realized that I wrote the best stuff when my heart was torn wide open or when it was experiencing new highs. yeah, I actually said aloud that I don’t really want to write poetry anymore because I just don’t want to feel so hurt that something beautiful pours out of me.
I’ve been following “fuel your blogging” and there’s a lot of good advice on there. at least it sounds like good advice, whether it’s making your blog indispensable or stepping up the quality of posts. both of these make perfect sense, I’m sure I read something about having a purpose. and that’s my starting point. it’s time to redesign this blog, not just aesthetically but also to redefine it’s purpose. goals will be established and deadlines will be met. instead of a meandering sort of thing that comes and goes whenever I have something dieing to get off of my chest there will be purpose and thought, intent. . . and hopefully in time an established site will emerge with readers and everything.
it’s not just the blog, it’s everything and I can’t say that it has nothing to do with this time of year. something about coming out of longer nights makes me want to push harder to see light. I set goals and truth be told have the determination and energy to see them through. I did great things last year and have plans for this year too. so stick with me. I’m sure this will still be a lifestyle blog but when I’m writing I will be in that moment writing and that’s all that time will be for.
