it takes 19 years to see one on New Years Eve and tomorrow is out lucky day, at least in the US, I read that Australia will be treated to an eclipse . . . I think it’s Australia but then I was reading this at about 5:30 this morning on my phone and I do seem to have a fascination with the land down under so maybe I’m wrong; but I’m pretty sure that them and most of Asia will have a solar eclipse. (yes, I read science gossip stuff).
crazy thing is I remember NYE of 1990/91
it seems like I’ve been reading a lot lately, mostly stuff to either entertain me or to help me in some way shape or form ~ this is a BIG up over the majority of the year that was spent reading in preparation for an exam. you know it’s been one helluva year, I said 09 was going to be my grind and it was. so now looking at 2010 I’m wondering what I want for this year, and I think the answer hit me yesterday that I’d like to focus on doing things that I simply enjoy doing and not trying to accomplish a certain goal just to get somewhere else. the truth is I tried that this year and though I accomplished a lot I can’t really say that I was rewarded with this grand feeling of fulfillment that I was hoping for. I’m very proud of myself for working towards my goals and for accomplishing all that I did this year.
I’m elated that I’ve gotten back in touch with quite a few old friends, for Christmas I actually got to speak with Kesha Crockett and Astarte! man it’s been too many years since I have heard either of their voices. I mean really I was touched or reached out to touch people that I thought I’d never get to speak with again and THAT is a beautiful thing. so I can honestly say that 2009 has been a beautiful year. it’s also been a year of harsh realities or ugly truths which has prompted a lot of soul searching.
a lot of soul searching
and what I’m leaning toward is just trying to be happy in opposed to trying to be better. this is a different approach for me and by no means do I say this to mean that I’m not going to take on so many projects. I’ll still spend just as much time and energy on what I consider to be cool fun stuff and what others may see as obscure and quirky hobbies, but this year it will all be in pursuit of a personal dream or simply for the sake of doing it. I think that without all that stress of trying to achieve I’ll get even farther than I did in 09. and if I didn’t mention it already (pretty sure I did) 2009 was a monster of a year and though I bitched and moaned at different times I kept working and I made it through. I can honestly say that I’m proud of myself and that right there is worth it all (my daughters say that they are proud of me too ~ how’s that for amazing).
I’m not sure if I’m posting tomorrow, if not I hope that everyone has a safe holiday and that the new year brings all that you hope for and that this year was overall pretty sweet.
~de
