yeah, I’m laughing . . . but then again I’m really not. I do think too much. it’s fine when I’m at work or if I’m problem solving but sometimes it would be nice to not be so damn cerebral. why can’t I just kick it or just lay back and relax, why do I have to be the one who’s even thinking enough to post this.
who are
you
Sue Snue?don’t get me wrong. I love my mind and as crazy as it may be it has made me who I am, literally. still and all it would be nice if I just had a little switch that every now and then I could flip just long enough to take it easy. case in point I’m even thinking of ways to relax?!?!?! WTF is wrong with me.
I’ve been saying that I should practice meditating again, really I’m practicing practice but it’s a start.
so, on to more productive matters. it hit me today that I’m not me. sure I’m me but I’m not really me, at least not the me of my choosing. more so that of other people. . . I used to think that they had my best interest at heart but what has become overwhelming apparent to me is that they don’t really know me anymore because I’ve been trying to be for everyone else and not for me. so I decided, really it was more like an epiphany, I’m going to reinvent me. actually there’s going to be a lot of meditation because I have to get through all the voices of everybody else and just listen to me. in most cases I over-think when things feel foreign to me, well that’s because they are not of my doing . . . so if I go back to me the answers will be clear and my mind will be free to relax.
this is my theory
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I think too much too. I can never just sit down and relax at the couch. That is why I love running so much! It helps me slow down, mentally.
I learned last year that when you are making a big decision it’s easy to tell who has your best interests in minds, and surprisingly, sometimes the people you really think will, don’t.