a chain of events that takes you some place new that all started the moment you wake up. it has happened, to me. by no means perfect but there has been so much progress in regards to my internal well being. I can’t say that I’m all happy because I damaged some things that may never be the same again; but I feel peace and that is so much better than the torture that I had come to know so well.
in the worst way possible I had become my worst enemy and that fueled the fire of an emotional addiction to which I had become a slave. right there in plain sight was the most horrible of monsters and when asked to describe it I froze, I realized that it was me. in the wake of such an epiphany I’m still haunted by said demons but the battles end in my favor. I pray that this war will soon end.
I’m getting to know faith. that probably sounds foolish but I am 37 years old and have had very little faith in most things, I do up and to a point but then there’s a barrier. I have to tell you while it feels great to be rid of it it’s scary, petrifying actually. I’m so wide open right now that it could be devastating but I know where I’ve placed myself and I’m in good hands and my heart is a fertile ground for love to grow, love for me even. yes, love for even me.
