I’m still without a computer and it’s really hitting me how much I miss the more convenient access than my phone can give me or the really quick while at lunch access to the virtual world. during this time away I’ve really let go of facebook and other social media, I’ve let go of my surfing habit; but I’ve also missed out on being able to do this. . .
so I’ve been reading, still on ways to make this blog better. and I’ve been thinking about how I’d like a new computer and that brings the reality that I need to generate more cash. so one of my inspirations has come in the form of me wanting to and actually performing great work. my brain has been on point! at work and even off the clock where it’s my duty to successfully complete this ncidq certification once and for all. so I have the most realistic study plan in order and in a little over a month I’ll be done with the exams :)
did I mention that I’ve entered a photograph in the Chicago Flower & Garden Show photography competition? well the process of printing and re-printing then matting and of course re-matting (only one of these re-do’s is my fault) was a little stressful; but I met my deadline and starting this weekend we can all go and see my pretty pink baby on display. why am I so excited about this, it’s hard to say but I think the simplest answer is that it feels good. the photo makes me feel good to look at, displaying will make other people feel good and who knows what the judges will have to say but I say it’s pretty amazing the way mother nature makes us all beautiful.
but here’s the kicker: last night my daughters attended their second meditation class with me. neither of these have required and coercing on my part, they actually want to go. . . so shortly before the class began another woman came in with her two daughters :) now I haven’t been one to go on a regular basis but I’ve never seen kids in class, but two weeks after my girls go there are more. simple math and unmeasurable credit but I LOVE the way good things can influence or inspire others to do good things.
so I’m going to keep doing good, and from time to time I’ll update you with some details and even if they aren’t the same good things, I hope that you’re inspired to do some good of your own, if for no other reason because it feels “good”
lately it seems that I get up on Monday morning with the energy necessary to get my life back on track. I’m smiling on the inside and my ambition is truly in drive, today is no exception.
in fact the only thing different about today is that I just noticed this pattern that I’ve been following for the past few weeks. maybe it’s the extra rest from the weekend or maybe this is the mind trip that makes coping so much easier but in any case I’m thinking that this is a good thing. I’ve been doing some things and once they become official I’ll surely share but I have to tell you that it feels good, this whole “Empowerment Monday” thing that I’ve got going on. when I figure out the secret I’ll let you know what it is but I can tell you, it’s not the 925.
be well, and I mean really well from the inside out
~de
last Sunday my girls invited a trojan to our computer . . . once it got in it kicked the rest of us out. it’s one of those log in loops that immediately logs you out. I’m hoping my tech guru can backup my files before reinstalling the operating system but I am worried, and too angry to be angry.
when the macafee guy says he has to refund your money and dell tells you you have to find the original disk or buy a new one its safe to say things are lookin bad. so a week with no computer and I miss it. the girls are banned from online games, EVER, I’ve put even more thought into getting my iMac (probably not for a year) and sometime this spring I’ll be in the market for a tablet and drawing software so my little artists will have yet another medium.
I’m certain I have copies of my book elsewhere and I can redesign anything I need,maybe even better; but I don’t want to lose the unpublished pics of them. and I have no idea where all the program disks are.
I’ll be quiet just a little while longer before I embark on being the blogger I want to be.
there are a few who simply don’t want to hear what I have to say but if we went to school together, the rules of dating are not what they used to be. I’m not going to call anyone out; instead I’m just going to suggest five things that a woman looking for a relationship should keep in mind:
- clean up your spirit. if you are walking around with negativity, hate, insecurities or general unhappiness it lingers just like perfume, except this one turns people off. take however long it takes to find peace and that will be what your aura reflects, and it’s far more attractive than that other stuff.
- fix yourself. I don’t say this because I think that you need to be perfect, I say this because YOU think that you need to be perfect and so long as you do that too will be obvious to any man who takes the time to get to know you. so instead build your confidence by working on those things that you feel you need to work on, chances are even if you are being hard on yourself (which we all have done at some time or another) you are on to something.
- don’t get discouraged when you don’t get immediate results anddon’t lessen what you are looking for just to be off the market. let me elaborate: I’m not saying that only accepting a doctor who’s 6′-3″ in perfect physical condition who could be a model and is comfortably in the six figure range is what you should do. . . (I’m hoping you find it though). what I’m saying is that if you are looking for a relationship be okay with that and don’t settle for flings. I’ve met men who could tell I wanted something serious and they just weren’t there, we respectfully wen’t our own ways without wasting each others time and guess what, no one had hard feelings or any baggage. the reality is that you can’t have the right relationship with the wrong guy, both things have to be right as does the timing. if he’s just looking for fun let him find it, elsewhere, otherwise you will just be wasting your time.
on the flip side of this, if you know that you’re really looking for something casual why beat yourself up about it just because everyone is asking you when you’re going to get married. this is your life and if you are content to have fun right now ~ do it. I just say you should know why you’re doing what you’re doing.
- do not be afraid of your inner bad girl, freak or porn star. we are sexual creatures and if you’re going to go there, GO there. by now you should be comfortable with you and what you like and if you are looking to find that comfort you won’t if you stick with you’re same basics. my thinking is that if you can’t open up with someone sexually you should keep your legs closed.
- be comfortable. with you, with your life, and with him. I think that is a great place to start, an honest place to start, and when you’ve got the right beginning you just might get the ending that you’ve been looking for or you may find one that you had never imagined.
okay, so there are five things that I might tell some of my good friends that are looking but that haven’t asked. probably good advice for all ages but for those of us who aren’t twenty-something (when no one has kids or is married or is in that serious of a relationship) the game is different now. dating should have somewhat of a purpose to it if you know that you want a particular outcome. you need to keep yourself up and you need to get your stuff together if for no other reason to return that glow of invincibility that you felt when you were 20, on a grown woman (or man for that matter) that’s a great look!
did I mention that I’ve entered a photograph in the Chicago Flower & Garden Show photography competition? well the process of printing and re-printing then matting and of course re-matting (only one of these re-do’s is my fault) was a little stressful; but I met my deadline and starting this weekend we can all go and see my pretty pink baby on display. why am I so excited about this, it’s hard to say but I think the simplest answer is that it feels good. the photo makes me feel good to look at, displaying will make other people feel good and who knows what the judges will have to say but I say it’s pretty amazing the way mother nature makes us all beautiful.
